Note: I don't recommend doing 5-MeO-DMT alone. It's quite incapacitating and can cause vomiting, which can, in turn, cause suffocation. But if you're going to attempt suicide otherwise anyway, it may be worth trying as a last resort measure.
EDIT: To be clear, I'm not the author, I just happened across the post on reddit.
"Last night I sat at my desk, faced with two options. In front of me I had a handful of lethal amounts of benzos and opioids, and a little baggie of 5-Meo-DMT.
I figured that, since I was going to end it anyway, I might as well try the 5-meo before I go. It makes sense when you think about it. A 5-meo breakthrough experience is as close you can get to experiencing death without actually dying, and what did I have to lose? Maybe it will have something important to show me, and if not then oh well, whatever, I'll just die anyway.
So I proceeded to heat up the dab rig, you know the drill, and dump 13mg in and rip that shit fat and hold it in.
Within split seconds my entire reality and ego shattered. I was sent flying into orbit and my identity completely dissolved until there was no longer any time or space or any concepts or anything to hold on to. I was just one with God and everything. It felt like I beat the game of life. All I felt was just complete rapture and peace and oneness with all. That's really all I can say about it because the whole experience is really impossible to convey and very personal.
When I came back all I could do was laugh like a maniac. Like I had just got the punchline to the greatest joke of all time. All my problems felt insignificant compared to what I had just experienced. I just had this confirmation that in the end everything is okay. There is way more beyond this life.
I decided that dying once was enough for one day. I packed up my drugs and went to bed."
https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/if8urb/i_smoked_5meodmt_instead_of_killing_myself/
EDIT: To be clear, I'm not the author, I just happened across the post on reddit.
"Last night I sat at my desk, faced with two options. In front of me I had a handful of lethal amounts of benzos and opioids, and a little baggie of 5-Meo-DMT.
I figured that, since I was going to end it anyway, I might as well try the 5-meo before I go. It makes sense when you think about it. A 5-meo breakthrough experience is as close you can get to experiencing death without actually dying, and what did I have to lose? Maybe it will have something important to show me, and if not then oh well, whatever, I'll just die anyway.
So I proceeded to heat up the dab rig, you know the drill, and dump 13mg in and rip that shit fat and hold it in.
Within split seconds my entire reality and ego shattered. I was sent flying into orbit and my identity completely dissolved until there was no longer any time or space or any concepts or anything to hold on to. I was just one with God and everything. It felt like I beat the game of life. All I felt was just complete rapture and peace and oneness with all. That's really all I can say about it because the whole experience is really impossible to convey and very personal.
When I came back all I could do was laugh like a maniac. Like I had just got the punchline to the greatest joke of all time. All my problems felt insignificant compared to what I had just experienced. I just had this confirmation that in the end everything is okay. There is way more beyond this life.
I decided that dying once was enough for one day. I packed up my drugs and went to bed."
https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/if8urb/i_smoked_5meodmt_instead_of_killing_myself/